Posted 7 hours ago

It always seems like I have to wade through some unpleasantness before I can get the fresh winds of change.

Posted 1 day ago

I need to mentally chase through a bunch of possibilities before any of them can seem acceptable. Introspection is always dire for me figuring out what I’m after.

Posted 2 days ago

And at the end of such days I hardly notice they were.

Posted 3 days ago

It happens when my focus runs away. Being less aware of my body also makes me less aware of my surroundings.

Posted 4 days ago

Feelingsfatigue. Sometimes they don’t seem worth bothering with, just ship ‘em off. I’ve got other things to get done.

Posted 5 days ago

I notice this in myself and in other people. If someone is convinced something isn’t solvable then it won’t change. The belief that it can’t be changed often translates into not really wanting it to be changed—as you’re so locked into “how things are”.

Posted 6 days ago

When I hit a certain intensity of emotion or collection of emotions around a problem, I can’t solve that problem until I’ve dealt with the emotions. A lot of times I need to remove myself from the situation to deal with the emotions. Time and distance let solutions far into place. In the heat of things I can’t just “solve” my emotions and move towards a solution—unless it’s a new problem and not too intense emotions. New problems are easier to solve as the emotions haven’t had time to build. Once things have “built” I need space to let them uncoil.

Posted 1 week ago

Seeing the path and deciding I’m going to go down it, cleans things up for me. I feel most anxious about things when I haven’t made up my mind and don’t know what I’m going to do. The closing of immediate possibilities feels very calming.

Posted 1 week ago

It wasn’t a very present day. Time slips by quickly when I’m mentally jumping around.

Posted 1 week ago

I find it easier to fall asleep when overwrought with any emotion other than anger. Anger makes me want to do something and gets me staring at the problem over and over again.